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Happy Friday everyone! This week was all about the Russians, specifically Dostoyevsky and Tolstoy. I recently fell down the rabbit hole of Russian philosophical literature and I’m quite honestly hooked.

What’s most interesting about these two authors is that Tolstoy was a nobleman, but often wrote about people living in poverty. On the other hand, Dostoyevsky was impoverished, but some of his books focus on high society. They both aim toward the same thing, but from different lenses. Tolstoy will show you the depths of a man’s soul by the way he sits in a chair, while Dostoyevsky will show you the depths of a man’s soul by what he says to himself when he’s freaking out at 4am. Both methods are captivating, and I definitely recommend anything of theirs that you can get your hands on. That being said, let’s dive in.

Today, we’re bringing together what we’ve done this week by talking about how each author — philosopher — brings forth the theme of aliveness. Burning that off, we’ll do the Aliveness Check. We’ll polish this week off with one of Dostoyevsky’s deepest quotes from The Brothers Karamazov.

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Between Crime and Punishment, The Death of Ivan Ilyich, and Demons, and even The Idiot, we see one thread moving through all of them. People have a staunch tendency to live half-lives. Whether it be their guilt, their vanity, their careers, or just the performative nature of modern society, people rarely live as their true selves, and most people don’t even realize it.

Much of life becomes routine very quickly. Days begin to blend into one another through work, obligation, distraction, and repetition. We continue to function outwardly while feeling inwardly distant from life itself. Think about Raskolnikov, or Ivan Ilyich, or Stepan Trofimovich. Each one of those men let the real, raw truths of life slip away from them for the sake of their own intellectual or social vanity.

Familiarity starts to dull our attention to things around us. Raskolnikov walks all over St. Petersburg a few times before noticing he’s gotten anywhere, for goodness sake. That happens to us, too, however. We stop noticing people, beauty, time, even our own inner state. Another common thread between all these stories is that although the chronicles are seemingly out of the ordinary, they were resultant of the everyday happenings of life. Both Dostoyevsky and Tolstoy show how routine, while it creates stability, also creates a sort of emotional sleepwalking.

They both show how suffering is what awakens people from that sleepwalking. Crisis interrupts our automatic living, our autopilot. Pain is what forces our confrontation with things like mortality, conscience, meaning, relationship, and selfhood. Suffering becomes the moment life feels emotionally real again.

Real life isn’t found in abstraction or performance. It appears in the attention you bring to it. In the love and suffering you endure through it. In the honesty of ordinary existence. A person becomes more alive when they stop avoiding reality and begin participating in it fully.

Ask yourself:

“What is hell? I maintain that it is the suffering of being unable to love.” — Fyodor Dostoyevsky, The Brothers Karamazov

Fyodor Dostoyevsky is pointing toward a kind of spiritual numbness here. Inability to love does not just mean romance or affection, but a loss of connection to life itself. When people become consumed by pride, bitterness, abstraction, or emotional withdrawal, they slowly lose their capacity to genuinely participate in the world around them. That is why this ties so closely to aliveness. To love something deeply, whether it’s a person, life itself, or even ordinary existence, requires presence. The real danger is not suffering alone, but becoming so disconnected that nothing reaches you anymore.

Munch on that for today, and for the next two days, since I don’t post on weekends. Have a great weekend everyone. I hope I opened your eyes to the depth and soul of these Russian writers. Remember to come back next week for some brand new Thought Breakfast!

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